Together

“I’ll stay, I guess.” My best friend smiled at me and his eyes sparkled with something warm that made me think of marshmallows on stoves and iced tea on rural Pennsylvania roads. “I’ll stay with you.” I smiled back at him and thought to myself that I was, indeed, a very blessed, lucky person, wasn’t…

Needy, greedy boy

“What are you doing?” For once, it was me asking the questions and my best friend looking like a deer in the headlights. He smiled at me and shrugged as if to say ‘I don’t even know myself’ and tugged on the piece of yarn that he had managed to tangle around his hands. “Is…

Unforgettable

“We’re bloody married.” In retrospect it was good that I had been brushing my teeth when I came to that conclusion and that my words came out slurred with foam and sounded like this: “Mhhm boommy mawwied.” I know for a fact that I would have been very embarrassed to explain to my best friend…

A string of thought uncoils before midnight

There’s a right type of fuel to feed to a fire. That’s the thought that occurred to me while I was skimming through some fading copies of an old poetry book. I had them made approximately two years ago, when I had been extremely confused about life and still picking up pieces of myself from…

Only human

“Don’t cry because he told you,” The blond man smiled at me and tucked a strand of hair behind his ear. “That his love has slipped away. Because I once knew a boy, who watched the sun rise every day, one morning I sat with him, wrapped entirely in my awe, but he said he’d…

Seriously. Think about it.

There are relatively few things that can rile me up at 8 in the morning. You know, like psychopathological psychiatric issues, human right’s issues and, of course, women’s right’s issues. Now, I’m not saying I never get riled up past 8 a.m. but these things in particular have a tendency to make me want to…

My only consolation was losing what we had

My counsellor/therapist/doctor/man-who-is-to-the-moment-unafraid-of-unleashing-my-inner-demons is crazy enough to think that writing a blog might help me understand myself better and is slightly hopefull that through my writing I will be able to connect with people in a way I am unable to accomplish face to face. I, for once, don’t know what to say to him. On…

A different point of view

Lately there has been a change in the way mental illnesses are perceived. Little by little it’s become easier to speak about depression, suicides, anxiety, schizophrenia, PTSD and the many ways in which people try to cope with their pain, such as cutting, drinking, smoking or doing drugs. This changes have allowed people to ask…

Here’s to the difficult ones

Love can be an incredibly dangerous and incredibly stupid affair to engage into. It is ruthless enough to destroy you and possibly one of the best things that can ever happen in your whole life. What they don’t tell you is that there are people that will be harder to love than others and their…

Go to battle

My mother is a single mother. And she has made every type of sacrifice existing to make sure neither me nor my sister lack for anything. And I am very thankful for all that she has done and all she will continue to do for us but today I want to do something I don’t usually do; today I…

Gender equality?

I knew it would happen. I was waiting for it to happen. Sooner or later it would happen to me. I just wasn’t expecting it to come from a friend. Sexism. Yes, it is an issue. Yes, I was waiting for it to happen. Yes, I am a woman. Today I was lying in bed…

Did they?

Did they know you were only human? Sometimes I think of the people who have managed to glue themselves back together by sheer force of will. People like me. And I wonder if someone ever realized with the same level of terror as I did that we are only human. Did they know you were only human?…